You don't need to be perfect to experience the love of God.People may say otherwise but God loves you as you are. Good grades, good looks or money don't determine whether God loves you or not. He breathed a part of himself into you so that you may manifest his glory into the world.He saw you as the perfect candidate.
Keep Trusting. God has got your back.
Do you have a support system ??? Do you have people around you who believe in you ; who believe in your vision ?
You may think you are an ordinary person ; but not before God. Whilst men look down on you the Lord will favor you like he did with Esther who was just but an orphan who became a queen. Joseph was taken out of prison to be a governor. Your time to testify will come. Be vigilant. Stay still in the Lord.
When God created you he breathed a part of himself into you therefore he will always preserve you. You are no joke to him. He's looking out for you.